I love how my intuition guides me to direct my attention and awareness to a certain theme in Divine timing. By now I can recognize when the Mystery is organizing circumstances to have a pattern let go of me. This is one of my favorite teachings of Matt Kahn’s. I used to believe I had to plan, scheme, control to get RID of a pattern. I also heard in the last AA call something that has finally dropped from head to heart. Rather than trying to get rid of doubt, get rid of scarcity I simply love the one feeling those things. Of course understood intellectually for a long time yet finally landed in my heart.
So right now what is coming to me clearly is how I agreed to be part of the soul team that came to help bust through limitations, specifically scarcity. So am I a nudge for experiencing scarcity or is this exactly as my soul designed for the benefit of all. In one scenario I can feel like a victim or a failure, in the other I can inhabit my own inherent worth and power. I see it is the pattern of scarcity arising in the now to be integrated. I can kick and scream, blame and shame, take it personally or I can love what is arising. I think I’ll choose door number two. I can be aware of how old thoughts and beliefs surface in my mind and I can simply let them go. I can affirm we are now in a new earth, with new possibilities. I can let go of the old rather than continue to drag around my old ball and chain. It has helped me that I finally met one person who sees as I see and joins me in letting go of the limiting belief that money is our source. Now instead of feeling coward, I am feeling empowered. 