lead with the heart

I find the term mindfulness a curious choice; to me a better term would be mindlessness. Maybe heart-fullness would be more accurate in my view. I often get lost in my head trying to resolve things, figure them out. I always have better luck when I dive into my heart. Case in point. On Thursday my daughter and ex were involved in a serious accident that totaled the car and left them both shaken with only minor pains but bigger trauma that is still releasing. I then had 3 presentations. It was my first time working with teenagers and was a vision I had held for some time and was excited to fulfill. In the first presentation on mindfulness to the 10th grade, relating it to surviving or thriving, I had had a teenager critique me and was filled with dos and don’ts for teenagers. I also was given some parameters by the teacher. Given how shaken i was to be presenting with only about 10 minutes to center myself after leaving the scene of the accident, the presentation went exceedingly well considering but still was a bit dry. On some level I was viewing the teens as “other” and was in my head about it.
In the second presentation, on journalism to the 11th grade, I have been given no advice or parameters and I let my heart soar. I was fearless in my honesty and vulnerability. In the first I was coming largely from my head, in the second almost pure heart. It went fabulous, was very well received with fascinating questions and I even received a spontaneous hug!
Then on to facilitate mindfulness at the jail agin with little time to deal with my own stress and very bad stomach ache that began from one minute to the next when the accident occurred, even though I did not learn of it for half an hour. Again I came purely from heart as did my amazing co-facilitator Jemma and there was such a powerful feeling of Y E S. I felt so aligned, so myself in both of the heart presentations. I felt relieved, temporarily , of any stress. For me dropping in to our hearts and following the lead of love is the only antidote for the suffering of these times. It gets ever more clear to me and I am doing my best to switch leads from head to heart.