I woke up this morning with a profound awareness. The last few weeks have been emotionally powerful as I moved through what feels like the completion of a significant part of my first soul mission. Several things happen where in the past I would be livid, heartbroken, devastated or something similar. I have committed powerfully to my own liberation, and that of all whom I meet so I had to choose again how to perceive what was unfolding.
The acid test came when someone very close to me did not acknowledge my birthday nor did they answer my request to tell me a time when we could meet. A decade ago I would’ve been tearing my hair out. But overtime gradually letting all the hooks out of others as best as I can. It doesn’t even make sense to me really why this has been so tender and fragile, but it has been. Letting go of the expectations and the demands. Yet it was hard for me to make sense of it
I woke up this morning and knew that this person was simply a character living out the lines I had given to set myself free. The test was would I choose to blame shame manipulate control to get what I thought was so essential. It was only with the support of beloveds that I was able to hold the line and stay without trying to get the hook in. Took tremendous awareness and focus.
When I woke up this morning, I knew a freedom and a sense of completion. Not surprisingly, I heard from the person who suggested sometimes to meet. I had to high five my team. Well done. I got the point, and was able to move through it with a lot of physical pressure on the body, but emotionally fairly smooth sailing.
And just as an aside this process has been physically grueling. Today at the gym, I could do the stairmaster and the elliptical at a level I’ve never done with lower heart rate than ever; moving through these energies is definitely not just an emotional process.
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