I know so many people that are great at the ascension game. Reaching a state of spiritual awareness and emptiness that induces great peace. But a number of the people I’ve known have parked there and done their best to stay out of the messiness of being human. God knows I’ve been tempted to do the same. I’m still recovering from being a reluctant human.I spent the day yesterday with someone who I perceive to be both of the ascension game and the dissension game, bringing it back down to the level of the human. That’s the game I’m interested in playing. Yesterday the Solstice felt like one of the most empowering days of my life on so many levels. So many things went “wrong.” The times I felt like I must be in a James Bond movie. My friend and I had the intention for a wondrous day which seem to be thwarted with a flat tire,credit cards that wouldn’t work people parking in a way that block the gas tanks to fill up with gas and other silly conditions that created feelings of overwhelm. But through it all we kept laughing and finding another way. There were so many moments when fear arose and a part of me wanted to say no to any further experience, retreat, go home. Yet over and over, choose Trust and moving forward, following the line of aliveness and Joy.
A few moments I want to mention particularly. Something I’ve been playing with for eons is to allow myself to feel exactly what I feel take full responsibility and not blame someone else for how I’m feeling. In the morning despite sweaty palms because anger was coursing through me so powerfully, I kept my seat and stayed in my own experience allowing it fully. Later in the day when there was a challenge in the relationship, again I kept my seat and spoke the truth of my experience with full ownership in a way I have literally never done before. From my point of view it create great intimacy and connection. And I was blessed to be with someone who had such incredible self-awareness that we were able to speak at that level of authenticity.
The final thing I want to mention is my friend offered the possibility of something huge something almost beyond my imagination. The minute she told me of the possibility, I literally stood up in a crowded bar and let energy course through me from the top of my head to the tips of my toe and what felt like a lightning bolt of power. I was holding my solar plexus and letting the limitless possibilities course through Me. I felt like I could do anything because I would merely be a conduit. So incredibly powerful.
For me this is the gift of these times and they energies coursing through. To embrace limitless possibilities and to know the power of who we truly are. I did a ritual and burned the contract with suffering and declared myself as a creator. Make it so.
One thing I feel to add. It felt like is every obstacle came off we played off each other’s strengths. It seemed that whatever came up we each tried to get the others point of view as best we could and see what would work for both of us. I have it that my friend has abilities that are very weak for me and that I have abilities that are not her strong suit. So whatever happened one or the other of us would come up with a way to get around the seeming obstacle. And some there was no way around and we just stayed with it, from my point of view, without resistance; what a miracle.
