I facilitated my first weekend retreat a few days ago. For many years I’ve wished to offer retreats but felt that I needed to be trained or have some type of experience in order to be qualified. So when a friend asked me to do it i initially felt impelled to say no. But inner guidance insisted on something else.
I wish I could put into words the gifts I received. Perhaps overtime. Amazing to see that all that rose from my gut with ease and grace Directing without planning. For me it was an extraordinarily powerful and rich experience. I had to trust that I knew without knowing.
To be with four beings all of whom are capable of “reading” energy was I imagine a harbinger of the future. To be able to tune in to one person with such fine detail it truly was almost as though I could read her mind and her body. To be around someone who I experience as incredibly aware grounded and able of taking ownership of her own experience at a very young age both blew my mind and gave me incredible hope.
To the beauty of the olive estate that hosted i bow in gratitude. The magnificent vistas were foundational to me birthing what feels like a new epoch in this life. To have pulled it all off without feeling overwhelmed is for me a miracle. I never had to get away from people I never was worried about feeling depleted I never had to escape in order to regulate. Effortless.
An inner stillness that is the gift of probably millions of lifetimes is taking root within. May we all receive the blessings of these times.
This is not to say it was without challenges. There were a few. In one of the Experience is known as T group where we focus exclusively on our own experience, a very profound shadow I had never seen before arose. It took me deep into an extremely painful wound from childhood and was no small thing to allow pass-through. Yet I have it that each person was taking responsibility for their own experience; for me the event was remarkably Grace-filled