We don’t let go of difficulties difficulties let go of us – Rupert Spira
New Year’s 2004 I knew my marriage was meant to end but it took seven years and my wasband’s courage for it finally to end in 2011. since we were best friends and family to each other, this was no small thing.
In 2019 my daughter moved out permanently. I knew in my bones we were about to go through a planetary shift; I actually had expected it to happen sooner. So everything within me was going no no no no no no no. I can’t do this alone. And I was right. Yet it turns out what it forced me into was finding mySelf. I had run out of rope For the very necessary phase of being supported by others and getting free. My soul knew that to access the freedom that was my intent and is my intent, it was time to go it alone. I went into its kicking and screaming and then of course I realized I better surrender and accept my soul knows best. Years later I’m often more able to trust when things look like they’re headed south that somehow this is an alignment for this path. This is just my way but I have it that when things look the worst, there’s always a gift there. Just like when this body went into major overload on Saturday. I kept repeating to myself, can’t wait for the gift can’t wait for the gift can’t wait for the gift. And I already feel it arriving today. And it taste like love. And it taste like freedom. And it taste like peace.