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Normally I live a pretty simple life. I used to have a mild shopping addiction, consider little mini vacations absolutely essential for my well-being, and found eating out at fancy meals de rigger at least occasionally. That hasn’t been my lifestyle for sometime.

Yet with my birthday I went shopping for some things I needed and ended up buying things I didn’t need at all. I ate out a few times. I had sweets four or five times. What’s fascinating to notice for me is that my tranquility and peace were impacted negatively. I ate one dessert that was incredible and now I feel a craving to get it again. I’m super grateful to be satisfied not to get (many) gifts for birthday or have any celebration for Mother’s Day. That feels very peaceful. I don’t have expectations or attachments there. But can feel a mild attachment to having that one dessert again. I’m also obsessing with trying to find some water shoes now that mine broke and are not easily repaired. I can’t find any that fit and tried to convince myself for one that almost fit. Amazing to watch this mind mildly obsess. Very mild dissatisfaction with the peace and tranquility of my normal life. Fascinating to observe.