A core limiting belief got triggered Friday March 17that I’m still needing to sit with. About 15 years ago I helped edit a book called “Memory in the Cells.” I had become a master at pain body release but didn’t totally realize that limiting beliefs could re-muddy the waters.
I see that again I had somewhat neglected the power of limiting beliefs. Last year the belief that sensitivity could keep me looping in anxiety forever with each blast of new solar energy felt like it could take me out of the game. Moving beyond that belief that I would be anxious for the rest of my life because of sensitivity took most of my life to resolve. And now moving closer to the core separation. Having to move through the grief of believing that if I show up authentically, I won’t be loved. Been rather challenging to take full ownership of this one. Play still very much in progress. I love you Suzie. I won’t abandon you. And I won’t ask you to change yourself to fit in.
Yet I’m aware that I have been blessed by one core belief/ Knowing that has been my true north, my polestar guiding me my entire life. Some part of me has always known that I am Love. Some part of me has always known that I am an intricate part of a web of life some call the unified field. For this I give bountiful and limitless gratitude.
PS. As I lay in bed I looked out the window and saw a bobcat. When I looked up what it meant this is what I saw: The bobcat is a sign to leap out of hiding and show our power and potential to the world.
Additionally I went through an X class flare and didn’t even notice it about a month ago. I was taking a 2 1/2 hour walk while it happened. If I have any believe about it now, it is too that these huge waves of energy are lifting me/ us ever more powerfully back to the full Remembrance of my/ our true nature
3/24
Had to sit with this belief and grief with copious tears. Today had the chance to bring that to huge integration. Took everything I had to not ush it away, try to bury it, shove it down. Instead I stayed with it, played with changing the belief, allowed all the trears and finally, with a lot of help from my unseen friends and human friends, moved through it.
