I just came from the most extraordinary experience called slow T group. I was with three men none of whom I’ve ever met before. It felt like a rebirth.
I adore Friday the 13th. I suspect I will remember this date for the rest of my life. In the group I was 100% natural. I told the man I’ve never met before that I was experiencing intense love for him. I took so many risk. There were a minimum of three distinct miracles. My body was on fire twice and it felt at times as though that energy was lifting out into the stratosphere.
Miracle number one. Sensitivity being my superpower moved from the head to the heart and embodied fully. Miracle number two witnessing a man who talked about wanting to feel some kind of conflict or discord or I can’t remember his exact word and this body this nervous system not firing at all. Miracle number three feeling profoundly connected to a man I’ve never met and I have no idea any details about his life, naming it and feeling completely unified in the field with him. Naming the overwhelming feeling of love coming through and naming the way the energy was wanting to move and hold with him. Having the man receive what I’d offered deeply yet Trusting that even if this man seemingly rejected the love I was extending, that was not going to affect the incredible gift I received from extending it. Trusting I was strong enough to have my love seemingly be rejected and not have it diminish how powerful the experience was.
Other profound gratitudes. A day without rain yesterday, an experience with scarcity resolving miraculously, receiving support whenever I need it. Two examples. Yesterday the Wasband was here and helping me reattach the gutter that had blown lose in the wind. Last year having my daughter show me how to clear the culverts. Finding out she’s been doing it while she lived here and had never told me. Trusting I had the strength to do it and her showing up exactly when I needed her. Also feeling deeply connected to the trees on this property, to all life that shows up here on this land. So grateful that the trees are choosing to stay upright. Feeling a profound sense of connection in the field with a number of people and all that exist on this land. Every day becoming more natural, more organic, more exactly myself without any mask or need for protection. Dropping 7 pounds in a week. Letting go of sugar and bread and grains for the month of January and it being more simple than ever. Starting a five day kidney cleanse fasting and being super easy. Not even feeling the need for dried fruit as I let go of sugar. First time it’s ever been this easy
