Just about a week ago I had a very significant realization. Initially in life I tried to source love from others leading to very painful co-dependency and accompanying drama/ trauma. So then I went to “heaven”putting all my attention on the Mystery and doing my best to leave the human in the dust. That seemed to work for a while yet there was little joy. SO 10 months ago I was guided to embodiment practices. Yet the Truth is I would use my Divinity to shield me from humanity, still feeling the need for safety and protection. A week ago I saw how I often can hide in esoteric concepts that I am oh so passionate about yet leave intimacy and heart connection in the dust. So I choose to investigate this and many synchronicities unfolded. Yet one that happened just now has my mouth hanging open. I went to an inquiry and there were only two of us there. I assumed it had been cancelled at the last minute. So I asked the one person if he would stay and play. This is someone I did not know and only had encountered briefly once before. He agreed and in the space of much less than an hour we had incredible rich deep, intimate exploration of this alive topic (he agreed he felt this) which lead me to grieving this lack of human connection and intimacy, opening my heart at the “risk” of being hurt again and being willing to take the chance to open up without a shield. To allow my Spacious Presence to hold the beauty and the grief. This person is my earth angel. He is not even a FB friend. I won’t name him without permission but I am in awe of how quickly my intentions are taking form right now. SOOOOOOO much gratitude!!!!!!!!!! Feel sooo blessed!
