Beloveds,
This being human is no easy gig for many of us. When we wake up and real eyes the cruelty we have dished out from our own unconsciousness, ouch/ ugh. Not easy to make peace and let go of guilt. But know that what i want to share with you comes without guilt. I do still have guilt on other topics, but super celebration, here I don’t.
So I tell my daughter how for a little while (hours?) I resented her not getting back to me despite 3 requests over 4 days asking to set the day for her birthday celebration. I caught the irritation and was able to take full responsibility for it and return to innocence/ peace. Here is what she shared with me. She had had several very stressful situations occur, including one that lasted a long time and was potentially very dangerous. So imagine how it feels to be energetically cursing (subtly I know but still) a loved one while they are under stress. Boy does that feel good. But it feels absolutely fabulous to hold her. to hold more in innocence. I truly did not know the tremendous weight of separation in the body for such a long time.
Ok here is where I have not claimed my own innocence. I still can curse this energy/ nervous system that picks up so much information that for so much of my life I have felt overwhelmed. My great opportunity now is to freaking get over my rejection of this spect of self and to forgive the part of myself that still can’t accept this part of myself! Tenderness required! Not easy seemingly until I simply refuse to reject this part. And the energetic freedom that comes from no longer tolerating separation within is immense.
So while I have cursed the energetic experience this one has had living on a rather dense planet, it is also my saving grace. I simply have not been able to tolerate the energy of separation and thus have devoted myself to the task of Unity which ultimately is not a task, not a seeking, rather a Remembering. Had my nervous system not been on freaking fire, would I have devoted so many resources to this? Hell no. And since I witness the cost of separation is skyrocketing and extremely painful, to the point of extinction, can I truly regret this sensitivity? Sure I can with all the suffering that ensues. So when the Schumann resonance spikes and this body may feel like it is squeezed like in a Star Wars trash compactor, I can curse and rejected this aspect of self or choose again, only Love being real. Somedays I succeed and some days not. Can I be at peace however it unfolds? And just a point of information, my buddy Franco says we were behind as a planet, kind of polluting the solar system/ galaxy so in 2019 it was decided, ready or not. And we are now in the greatest acceleration the multiverse has ever known so no surprise the nerves may be screaming. And yea thought of I can’t take it anymore may be common. Some will choose to exit and god bless. My wish for myself, as I see the wonders of connection and unity expanding in my daily life, is I find a way to stick it. And of course the way is clear. Love. May the Force be with you. Thank you to all my brothers and sisters holding the Light and doing the inner work. Last night I saw the most glorious meteors lighting up the sky and leaving trails of stardust. Was so succulent. Just another gift offered by our beloved multiverse.
