On holy relationships, separation, projections and closing the gap:
I just went through a profound 17 day experience that has given me such major insight. A friend had said she was unsure she could continue our friendship and this lead to a wild ride internally as I sought answers. First step was hurt, confusion and upset with massive separation which eventually led to uncovering a huge nest of ancient self blame for unskillful behaviors in the past. I later realized I was projecting all kinds of scenarios on to the situations, explanations that were inaccurate, uncertainty and so one. Here are the huge take aways. Even keeping a sharp eye out, projections and stories were running me until I was willing to take 100% responsibility and keep digging until I found inner harmony, integrity and peace. My perception of what was going on with my friend was significantly inaccurate. I knew from the get go it was a major blessing and opportunity for deep wholing. I write about this because unless I had met numerous times with mighty companions who refused to jump into the gap with me and held me to the highest and best, I would have screwed this up royally. I am actually rather shocked at how many misinterpretations I uncovered. Only numerous encounter with my TTC miracle buddies helped me get to the bottom. I trusted my intuition about when to speak to my friend and I tell you sure only an 11th hour unexpected joining with beloveds helped me uncover a major piece before we spoke. A sense of unease is what kept me digging. I am so humbled by the experience and so blessed to have been given this extraordinary opportunity to close the gap of separation in such a significant way. A play still in progress.
I share this because my mouth is still open at how many misperceptions I would have let stand if mighty companions had not refused to join me in the gap of separation in any way, shape or form. I started officially studying holy relationships over a decade ago. The disharmony of tension in both my marriage and with my daughter was literally intolerable to me and I made a life altering vow to find my to peace and inner freedom, unconditional love. To be held in that way by a large group of people worldwide is the living enactment of a vision held for eons and frequently moves me to tears of joy. I feel a false sense of responsibility weighing on me, as though I am personally responsible for sharing this message of hope, there is a way out of suffering and separation. Yes, we must take 100% responsibility for what shows up in our lives. Yet the certainty of the love that is the gift awaiting all of us who take the ride, what else is worth this priceless gift?
