Beloveds,
You are free, you will find your way, have faith, trust yourself. Six and a half years ago I was dumped into a situation that triggered deep terror in my being. I was convinced by circumstances that I was being separated from love and that felt like a death sentence. I literally was not sure I’d survive. Rereading my poem “Avalanche” and some journal entries I made at that time, which just “happened” to get thrust in my face yesterday is reminding me of my level of desperation and panic. I truly feared I’d never get free since an M.A. in spiritual psychology and a therapy license hadn’t done it nor two trips around the world seeking.
I was sitting on my deck eating breakfast when a wave of tears hit me with a deluge. I made it. I no longer seek love outside yet I am gifted with one totally unconditional love relationship and a number of deeply loving friendships, ones without triggers or defenses. This is a miracle to me. I kept saying, I made it, I made it! I had never taken the time to celebrate this amazing miracle. I share this as I know many are feeling desperate now, afraid they will never be free, the suffering will never end. It may take incredible stamina and courage to ride these waves of transformation. I salute you. But beloveds, if you knew how far I’ve come you’d know it is possible for EVERYONE to survive this journey. Set you intent and then take your hands off the steering wheel. Your journey is directed by a soul plan you arranged eons ago. It is not your goodness that will take you Home, it is Who you are. The truth of Who you are can never be altered, this is what is lifting you Home.
image, feeling free, Andycap