I love how FaceBook gives us the opportunity to move into wholeness. I have had some deep issues triggered on the internet and I truly love having my buttons pushed NOW, yea, I used to hate it, as it shows me where I need further integration to reach freedom and peace. This practice of feeling and honoring our emotions feels so vital i feel called to share my experience here. This is something I posted on my event Adoring ALL ASPECTS of Ourselves, just for the Joy of it! https://www.facebook.com/events/658111517664905/
I felt sadness because something I wrote had caused upset in another. The sadness is mine to look at regardless of the situation. I felt my shoulders hunch, my heart contract. Then vulnerability arose in a big way and I found myself trying to explain to others what was occurring within me. S T O P! Here I am preaching about the importance of feeling and honoring our feelings, I was literally in the process of writing about it while I was ignoring my own sadness, then my own vulnerability. Ya gotta love it! Then I found myself explaining WHY I felt so vulnerable instead of honoring the feelings of vulnerability in my own body. Ya can’t make this stuff up, for real? Yup, that is what I just caught myself in the act of doing. My spiritual ego/ obsession with my identity as a spiritual teacher (more on that topic later, it is bubbling to the surface now) made that the priority instead of honoring myself. So I caught myself AGAIN and stopped to feel the vulnerability arising in my body. I felt a line of energy shoot up my spine and half way up my skull. My whole body was tense and shaky. I felt exposed, raw. My body heated up. So I stopped, breathed deeply, offered compassion to myself. I asked myself what I needed and there were some very specific action steps including not making this practice here on FB more important then my own emotions. Heard and understood. I also was asked to do something else and I took action to honor my feelings. I did not try to talk myself out of it as I would have in the past. I have been guilty of making the needs of others more important than my own, trying to placate another rather then honor myself. In this moment I see how this went back to childhood where placating a family member felt like life or death. All this awareness spring from taking the time to feel and honor my moment to moment experience. A friend also pointed out to me that there is an opportunity I had never considered before, a way of stepping into mastery that feels very shaky to me as it involves speaking out in a bold new way. I have learned to do this in my family and it definitely created some waves. Now to do it in the world. OK, I got this, she said while shaking in her boots.
And here is the suggestion I made for those participating in my free event. With the energy of the full moon, my emotions are being tossed hither and yon. So I suggest feeling your emotions in your BODY. If this is difficult, name the sensations arising, either out loud or internally. Ask your emotions what they need from you beyond your loving attention. Is there something specific they want from you? How can you honor what is arising within you? Trust me some part of you will be so relieved when you finally turn your attention within. There will be an internal celebration and gratitude.
Feel free to join the event if it feels of interest.
