For me, the theme of control is up big-time and I also see it in the collective. How can I control my environment you or something else so I feel safe?
In a group with someone who has activated me for a long time, I finally decided not to come to the group when that person was there and thought I had it made in the shade. But then that person showed up when I didn’t expect them. 
now what?
now what?was so off-balance. The ego had kind of a field day basically letting her know why she was the problem. I can’t say it was satisfying although on some level it was, I don’t feel shame or blame or guilt, but it also didn’t answer my deepest question. I was guided when I was awake before dawn to live the question and stop trying to jump to an answer.
