I’m making soup for a little solstice gathering tomorrow. I ordered a Vitamix on January 20 11 months ago. I wanted one for years and finally use mileage points to get one. Yet it took forever for me to actually open the box. I finally had the energy to take the thing out of the box to get ready to use it to mix up the soup today. To say that I find the energies to be rather intense and requiring a lot of my attention and presence would be an understatement.
For so long I felt like a victim of sensitivity. Why didn’t others feel energy as I did? Why could others go on as though nothing were happening? I thought there must be something seriously wrong with me. It’s only in the last months that I feel like it’s truly dawning on me what I had not been seeing.
It’s five weeks ago that my prescription reading glasses disappeared. I had three or four dollar store glasses and they too disappeared. Then either the optometrist or UPS or the lab lost my glass frames so it will be some more time before I finally get my new glasses. I had to start back at the drawing board with new frames two days ago. What was I not seeing?
Last year before my eye surgeries literally a few hours out I realized I believed I could not see the new earth with my physical eyes. Since committing to seeing it daily my eyesight has stayed steady. And now I believe this is what I have been directed to see. I wasn’t able to share it in my wild hearts group because the electrical power was down. Perfect I’ll share it here with all of you.
“In reality, your experience, that is, your awareness – what is true about you – is no different than what is true about me. (Jeshua)
The only difference has been that I learned to train myself, hour by hour, to drop only unlimited pebbles, then send out vibrations of unconditional acceptance and love, forgiveness, unconditional and unbridled vision and revelation, while you have selected to do that only a few times.
Then you rush back and pick up the pebbles of unworthiness, or limitation, or lack, or fear, or smallness, and you drop 10 or 12 quick ones in. Then you go back to the other cupboard and say, “, here’s the pebble that says, “I and my father are one “… oh, had enough of that!” And back you go again.”
“The Way of Mastery”, lesson eight, the way of the heart.
This is what has been revealed to me very powerfully in the last months. I talk about love and revelation and awareness and then I talk about doubt and worry and concern. Just yesterday I told the sad story of how my sister took my angel. And even when I had proof that the blonde was mine and the pink haired one was hers, she wouldn’t give it back. And even when I gave her all the things she ever wanted and asked me for that were precious to me, she still didn’t give her back. Literally yesterday I heard myself tell that and two stories or maybe three of where I was either a “victim” or “unfairly” treated. But I caught it immediately and reversed my story.
What this year has shown me is exactly what the quote says above. I need to be responsible for every word action and thought. Yes it can be rather daunting but when I see the miraculous results and miracles appearing seemingly out of nowhere, I say yes and amen. I’m in but only 1000% or let’s call that 1 billion. Who else wants to play!?
Also I’ve done more in the last two weeks or maybe three weeks each day then I’d been able to do in maybe two decades. Feels like energy is starting to come back. Anybody else experiencing that?
