Today’s relationship focus is on the body and welcoming everything.
For the last 3 1/2 years my attention has been drawn to embodiment and accepting being human. Until then I didn’t realize how much I was rejecting being on the planet and being human. I suspect this is fairly common for light workers, empaths, sensitives. I know almost all my friends have spoken about not feeling at home here and not uncommonly wanting to leave. For these last years I’ve been very interested in changing that entire limiting belief and coming into gratitude and acceptance of the human experience. But the body often seem to be a stumbling block.
For me my relationship with energy started in 1987 and accelerated in 1999 but didn’t become deeply uncomfortable until 2009. Since then the way this body has received energy has numerous times felt quite debilitating and challenging. It made it difficult to make plans or to travel and I would be often be somewhere between frightened and panicked about what the body would do while traveling long distances.
Recently I’ve taken an annual trip to the coast often in August around the time of the Lionsgate. I would be somewhere between concerned and flipped out about how the body would respond to the long drive alone. And each year I would make progress on deeper levels of self acceptance and relaxation with many many awarenesses coming from this challenge. But this year‘s journey really blew it out of the water with the help of this gorgeous cosmic creature named Damian Gallagher.
I’ve known Damian for two years participating in his facilitating training group in the relational leader ship academy. There are six principles of the Circling experience that he drilled into our head over and over and over. To be honest I got to the point where I was like enough already but it turned out it wasn’t enough. He would tell us repeatedly to welcome everything and not try to fix or change ourselves or another. Particularly giving all my training in psychotherapy, this was no small thing to let go of trying to fix another. To say it was life altering doesn’t really do it justice. I had to hear it so many times before I really began to fully receive the significance of not approaching myself as a problem to be solved. Even though I played with this for many many years, with Damian support it’s sunken in deeper than ever. To truly welcome whatever arose in the moment was so supportive to the direction I was already headed.
It was a great joy to meet Damian for the first time in person while on my trip to the coast. But there were more gifts in store.
I went to our weekly facilitation training group and mentioned again my challenges with how the body seems to respond to cosmic energies. While I know that it’s a belief that has solidified into something resembling a curse, I couldn’t seem to free myself of it. I have made huge progress but still it’s been a major deterrent to living a full life. Out of context which is very unusual for Damian, he began to do an informal circle around my experience. At one point he asked me what my body wanted to say to me. Initially I tried to bounce away but he drew me gently back. Even now repeating the words I heard there’s a sadness that arises. My buddy (was supposed to say body but I like the word buddy even better) said to me, “be with me.“ I knew this was a life altering message that I would never forget. I knew this was a marking point for a radical shift in my relationship with this body. But there were more gifts in store.
Damian proposed an experiment where one person would play the part of me that was rejecting the body and trying to push it away and another person would play the body saying be with me. As the experiment unfolded within about three minutes, I felt myself as a child feeling the density of being in my particular energy field and feeling planetary suffering. There was a recoiling. And within a few moments I went back to either the moment of conception or birth and felt what it felt like to land energetically in earths gravitational fear (wow I didn’t intentionally put that word in but it certainly fits) field of density. I felt my body recoiled and begin to reject the human experience. It was truly a life altering moment as I saw all the conditioning and beliefs that were programmed into that moment. Somehow witnessing it directly gave me the opportunity to make a new choice.
What I can tell you for sure is fir the first time I had no concern about the long drive home. I didn’t anticipate being tense or challenged by the drive. I was relax the day before and during the drive and made it home in record time. The relationship to the experience had changed dramatically.
I truly suspect that all of us who are sensitive, empaths, light workers have had this challenge to a greater or lesser degree with rejecting being human. To me these times are about correcting that imbalance and embracing ourselves truly as divine beings having a human experience. No longer trying to get out of it or get off earth but rather celebrating and enjoying it and finding a way to live in peace and bliss. Damian support both in this situation and over the last two years has proved invaluable. I truly can’t thank him enough.
I wanted to write this post anyway and there is an extraordinary opportunity available for the next few weeks. Damian is offering free Circling labs as a lead up to some events he’s offering. I find him an extraordinarily skilled facilitator and can’t recommend highly enough that you check it out. The link is below. Thank you Damian from the bottom of my heart.
Here’s the link for Damian‘s Circling lab: https://thecirclingspaceship.com/circling-lab/
