AS ALWAYS, JUST MY EXPERIENCE THAT MAY OR MAY NOT FIT FOR ANOTHER:
For the last three days, (glad Amanda Lorence remind me of the 3 day sine wave) I’ve been going through a frequency light upgrade otherwise known as the flu. From one minute to the next my body started coughing and sneezing and became feverish. It was not easy to keep dominion of the mind that wanted to go to doomsday. It was not easy to stay with this energy that felt dark and empty and rather meaningless. I did my best to accept and surrender.
Yesterday I had lovely plans and was sad not to be able to fulfill them. But because I was sitting at home not feeling well I chose to go to a group which turned out to be a miracle. I had what’s called a birthday circle and I was held by various members of the group. This gave me the capacity to go deeper than I can on my own. There was a woman I’ve never met who seem to get me at a deep level. I was able to dive deeply into a lifelong grief of feeling separate from love in a particular fashion.
At one point one member of the group asked if I felt desperate for love and I noticed that did not feel true. And then this woman asked me a question that brought such deep awareness. She asked me if it was an appetite. At first I didn’t know what she meant. She asked me if it was a capacity (Not sure if that was her word.) Then I realized this statement felt very true. I came here to be love and I’m not willing to settle for anything less. Rather than being a desperation, it is a devotion. It was a moment of extreme empowerment.
Today the flu is almost completely gone as the upgrade for now seems to be complete. Both yesterday and today I was faced with two people who have the two things that I still believe at the level of form I need to experience joy, peace, love. Watching the meaning the mind gave this has been quite entertaining. To not fall for this line again has taken devotion.
Three miracles unfolded during these days. The first was that I had forgotten that I had scheduled a call with a man I did not know who lives in Sweden. Our call occurred during the depths of the darkness. I felt definitely lifted by the call. The second occurred when I suddenly decided to go to this circle that I would not have gone to yesterday had I followed my original plans. If I had not gone, this deep grief would still be buried. Having a woman who has just returned to Circling be there to get me was a true miracle. And the third is a conversation I just had with my wasband (ex.) He reminded me of an experience we had in Turkey where my shoe had broken and an old man in the bazaar in Istanbul spent an hour repairing the sandal while treating us to tea and immense hospitality. We shared numerous memories from our 23 1/2 years together. There was a sense of absolute unity that was as strong or stronger than at any point in our marriage. This well it’s 12 years ago we separated. There was clear evidence of the unified Field operating between us which I won’t go into details.
I can’t say that this experience was easy. I just had another experience with a client that was so profound. Even though she lives maybe 1000 miles away we were absolutely unified in the field. It’s my sense that this is how we will create the new earth by finally knowing at a visceral level that we are never alone and that we are always connected. We cannot touch one part of the earth without it affecting another. As these high frequencies make this knowing more embodied, more will act from Unity. This is what I choose to keep my focus on, keep my attention on and let the noise just work itself out.
