Gotta laugh. Wrote this long convoluted post about my poor me story about presents and Christmas and technology did me the great favor of saying tired of that old story, won’t let you post it! Laughing as I write this. Yea, the old commercialism story has run its course. It never worked and it never will. Try it and see and let me know how it goes. There is only one gift and that is Presence. It works for me, it will work for you.
Yea, it was fun to hear family members argue about how the turkey was basted, moan and groan about how we didn’t get enough presents, the right presents, enough love, the right love. But it never works. I say again, the only gift is Presence. I pray I will not project my old neediness and demands on others this holiday. I pray even more that if I do, I will have compassion for this dear human who still hasn’t tended to all her wounds. I pray I will be spacious enough to offer love to all I come in contact with. I pray each of you will be bathed in Love and receive the nourishment your being so deserves. I pray all will have enough to eat and be warm this blessed eve. I pray our hearts will crack wide open with all the wonder and the glory, all the grief and despair. I pray your heart will feel spacious enough to hold it all. I pray you will be surrounded by others who can listen with their hearts, that you will be held tenderly with great compassion. I pray no one will go alone during the holidays or not have somewhere to sleep or something to eat. I know many of my prayers will go unanswered. So in the now I allow the tears of grief to bath these eyes. I bless them for the aliveness they bring to this heart, expanding it ever more fully until in the end, it is wide enough to say yes to it all.
