Yesterday I had a small gathering to celebrate the solstice and do ritual. I woke up and the body was very tight. I did my best to move slowly and simply allow the tension in the body. The day did not unfold as planned. This lead to an increased sense of being ungrounded. At the last minute, more than half the people who had RSVPed did not come. I heard from a few of them but one I did not hear anything from and it didn’t make sense to me. I did my best to remain in acceptance and surrender, yet the body was in protest. Two guests showed up five hours later than scheduled. Even though I had said what I was making for the potluck, somebody else brought the exact same thing. While I used my heart and mind to make peace with it, the body was not really having it. I asked my soul to reveal to me what was going on and how this was serving me. I have it that the upset is a set up for a gift.
It’s only in the last hours that it’s all coming together. Throughout my life I have used control of my environment to make peace and lend greater tranquility to the body as an empath. I try to control the level of noise, exposure to people etc. Reading Amanda Lawrence’s post gave me a good clue why the day unfolded as it did and how it was perfect. It was very much out of control. It activated a lot of energy in the body and I have a story that it was clearing it. So while the body might disagree, I choose to see it all as perfect and good and very very good. Another bonus? I was so ungrounded that having a larger crowd would have probably been more ungrounding. This way I got to enjoy my guest more intimately and with more presence, yea!
P.S. I just came from a meta inquiry where I was able to receive visceral confirmation that yes, yesterday’s chaos served me in a key shift in my embodied experience. There was some confusion, sadness, dissonance, questions etc. that arose and, unlike in the past, I was able to close my eyes and simply be with all that was arising WITHOUT agitation in the body. In the past (like yesterday and my previous life) I often would morph my energy into the upset, sadness, anger whatever. I witness how depleting this has been to this dear body. Today I could stay in my own Zoom square, in my own experience without closing my heart. Yahoo! My deep desire and intention is unfolding.
Here is the post from Amanda Lawrence I highly recommended:
WAYSHOWERS:
Please take what resonates and discard the rest. 
12 December to 21 December 2021:
We are NOW in a (potentially) PROFOUND period or passageway to expand in, day after day, leading to Solstice. I say ‘potentially’ as it depends on each’s perception, or dominant point of focus. Those dominant viewpoints is the dominant consciousness you’ve embodied so far, that you reference yourself and the world around you by. Your predominant LIGHTED reference point dictates your experiences, and what you attract, because you’re creating it (from your consciousness, the master creator being). Consciousness perceptions that dominate an individuals perception, regardless whether AWAKE or unawakened could be:
1] Dominated by mind thoughts. Dominated by control or it’s need to control it’s own environment.
2] Dominated by the heart. Yet perhaps still carrying pain and suffering to be seen, loved, released.
3] Dominated by it’s SOUL consciousness that is transcending more and more. You are now experiencing from BEING MODE, first, foremost, before the human mind. To replace the human personality (overlay), with Soul Consciousness. Retaining a human body to stay in the world in service to One.
BELOW DRAWING:
The below DRAWING I made in 2014 shows partly where we are in the Grand Timeline. The two world split has occurred, is in place. We approach the end of that split. The outside and for some their inside isn’t necessarily ‘peaceful’ just now. Once the Split Phase has completed, we then await the Main Wave Event of a major energy INFLUX from our Sun, that touches EVERYONE. By degree of the hertz frequency they can withstand. The drawing only shows some of the animated vision of the Grand Design shown to me. So, there’s so much more to come after the ‘Christic’ lighted energetic event arrives.
There are other scenarios of perception, such as those Souls choosing to leave the body entirely now and take a front row seat in another dimensional perspective. And there are those refusing (so far) to choose their heart over it’s programmed mind’s control over itself and possibly over others; be that a world, country, family, friend, group or loved one. There are also those, partly awake, seeking to create another world from WITHIN the actual MATRIX. See DRAWING 2. Humanity has experienced a complex crystalline LIGHT programme that runs until it’s let go of BY the individual (finished, completed, they surrender, give back the crystalline programme. To then take their own ‘Leap’).
And so, there are a myriad of perceptions for this 12-21 December passageway. And all are perfect. It just depends what’s dominantly running. And each one’s self awareness of their own choices and thoughts (thoughts running are actually choices). Everyone’s having their own journey. Key is YOUR experience for YOU. Tailor made, every step. Consciousness will always desire to EXPAND into YOU, become you. God desiring to Self realise ITSelf within you. What is helpful is witnessing when ANY experience contracts you and when any experience expands you. And this isn’t to be confused with the ego expanding itself and feeling good in the mind. This is about consciousness expanding as you (it doesn’t have a human ego. It’s neural, and not of the human).
21 December 2021 / Solstice:
Gateway opens. Stays open. We go through by matching the gateways energetic FREQUENCY of HERTZ. Once the gateway is open (switched on), it STAYS OPEN for all to match it’s frequency in their own perfect timing. So nooooo pressurising yourself! Flow as YOU!
21 December to 02 January 2022:
This too is a Passageway. It’s quiet. You may well wonder what Solstice was all about! Allow the quietness and steps you walk in this period to January. Trust that your knowledge of YOU, will unfold, if you just allow the space within, in stillness, to come through you. To find peace in the stillness that’s actually in a flow (corridor). It’s a bit like a quiet space in-between one precious version of you, before the next upgraded version of your consciousness comes forth… FROM WITHIN you.
2022:
2022…the year love is KNOWN, felt, given, received, expressed, UNDERSTOOD by so many, for what it TRULY is and ALWAYS has been. The year one by one LOVE is finally CHOSEN. Realised. Unconditional. Without mind restrictions and selective limitations the mind puts to Love. God Is All Love. The TRUTH, of what Love truly IS…hidden in plain sight all along. (I’ve waited ALL of my life for the world to experience the year 2022). Such revealing to occur. Yet the year will unfold solar month by solar month one step at a time.
02 January to 31 January 2022:
This is the unfolding period where one by one, you individually begin to understand WHAT Solstice (Dec 21) was actually about for you. Remember everything is multi-layered. As you traverse each day of January, you will quietly, astonishingly, begin to know what the year ahead is more about for your consciousness unfolding and expanding, and how that ties in to your divine service here. You will feel, absolutely KNOW, how you have SHIFTED since Solstice 21 December 2021. And will take on a newer waking awareness, of the more expanded version of ‘YOU’. This will be YOUR knowledge of understanding YOU more, understanding realities more, understanding the grand design more, that you will work with, give of, express as, expand into, one month at a time through the year 2022.
Finally, there is a part of me today that says “Help people understand the timelines, why the world scenes and dramas. Why many awakened feel they are struggling inside themselves. Help people to see the multiple layers of what’s happening, to help them find peace and trust and see the bigger picture”. But then my consciousness says “Just Be here Now. Expand. Become.”
If I were to give any advice it would be to: Give yourself this time to expand, as opposed to being distracted or indeed high jacked by either the world scene (illusion) or by people within your closer, own, self created reality (illusion). Be in YOUR PEACE within, by allowing everyone’s own viewpoint, life and journey. Because as I’ve said for some years now, 3d AND 4d are BOTH illusions to walk through, and out of, into the many higher states of consciousness you WILL and ARE to perceive by. And so will others, in their own divine timing. Hold compassion, and greater understanding. We are all blind until we see. And we all see differently again and again, as each part of this Grand Design unfolds. What was hidden in plain sight, gets seen, one by one. So Be the Love. It’s always the ONLY KEY that opens every door to you becoming more of your consciousness first, with all of your bodies merged and aligned, working together as One with Source. Because the higher frequency consciousness you always have been, is, has and always shall be connected consciously with God.
One Love
Amanda Love
13 December 2021