This experience is coming through more and more for me. I laugh I cry I’m angry all within five seconds. I can go from deep grief to body shaking belly laughs in a moment. I’ve never felt more alive or more in touch with the younger part of myself. It feels like she’s been let out of jail. I was called Suzie as a child and Suzie has been doing the happy dance and the sad dance as I sometimes feel others don’t seem to be able or desirous of welcoming that aspect of myself. Sometimes I don’t know how to get along with her and Honor what others tell me as they’re being thrown off by my passion. I can feel how sometimes the passion ungrounds me and has me speed up. So most likely it’s not the passion that others don’t feel comfortable with but the undergrounding. How to honor both is the cutting edge for me . How to honor what feels true and authentic for me and honor that I care about connection and I care about others experience. Right now it feels like Mission impossible and that’s OK. I’ll let that be the cutting edge of what it is. I will not try to fix or change myself I will simply grow into the next moment.
Curious if anyone else is having this experience of moving through emotions in lightning speed, really deep emotions.
