Two of my friends have pointed out to me my energy has been definitely damped this year, big surprise. They both have theories on it. Here is what it is for me. About a decade ago I discovered someone one very close to me had been subjected to unspeakable horrors. I still cry every time I think of it. I literally don’t know how to make sense of it. And while for 11 years I have known something is going on at a planetary level that is not for our highest good, it was not until this year that I was informed and then researched the depth of this evil.
Now I have been told I am delusional etc. And at the level that all form is illusion, yes that is of course true. Has this impacted my energy? For sure! Trust me I got the bare bones of what it is and then stopped. I don’t need to know more. Yet I still not been able to make peace either with what happened to my loved one nor what is happening, according to my research, globally. And yes I have taken hits for naming this. And yes I think we as as species will be facing this in the times to come.
I had a HUGE breakthrough last week when I was not only able to forgive and set free the person from my own childhood who created circumstances that for me kept me in a constant state of fear. Last week I was able to viscerally have empathy and true curiosity about what motivated this person’s behavior. I have tears of gratitude about my own ability to set this one totally free and my own heart as well. I intend to do this with all the evil I have discovered both in personal lives and globally. I would welcome any input, suggestions, personal experiences others have in this area. I would not welcome explorations of what is “wrong” with me or how my world view is skewed. If that is your view I respect that but do not feel that is helpful to me. Thank you for your kind consideration dear community, dear family. I know these times will carry us to oneness. And I know see what a friend said is true, playing in duality is not where it is at. I am just finding the way to authentically extricate myself form its grip. Thank you dear hearts.
