Joy experiment day 16?

Major ingredient for me in joy is slowing way down and streamlining my life even more. One other vital ingredient is jettisoning the ideal self. I just facilitated a breakout room for a circling shadow work event. I have had such fun this week releasing the inner bitch, snarky one and sharing that she exists with others. I have felt so much energy of guilt and shame be released into life force. I do not act these parts out on others other then in moments of unconsciousness but to admit to the hidden inner judgments is turning out to be big fun. That is my experience that clearly many others did not share.

This inner liberation leads to giggles throughout the day. And when the crap surfaces mentally, physically emotionally to have the inner fortitude and spaciousness to let it pass through, such gratitude. And when it gets stuck in the pipes and it feels to big to pass through, a few dear beloveds to lend me an energetic embrace to create more space for the allowance. Sooooooo much gratitude. I heard it said if you have one such person, you should be profoundly grateful two, on your knees in gratitude. Three years ago I had one, now i have a handful. Joy indeed.

And shifting my attitude and resistance to the outer chaos is a play still in progress but one that no longer takes me to my knees. One of my friends enjoys the movie drama of the fraud, lies, deceit etc. so much he is getting me to move into a sense of celebration and genuine excitement to see the slime surfacing for purifying. For the most part I can hold genuine enthusiasm, quite a shift from my initial horror. The greatest source of this joy is an inner acceptance of what is, who I am in this now moment without needing more, more growth, more awakening, more anything. I am what I am at my current level of awareness and that is good an very very good.