Empowerment

Six months ago there was so much I felt incapable of. Since then I signed a 30 page contract on my own, grew peppers tomatoes limes ground cherries salads, traveled under challenging circumstances, went on a longer vacation by myself. Yesterday after many attempts I started the generator and many other things. Today I have a hot cup of coffee on a cold day and a lovely warm robe. Realizing not to take the little things for granted rather truly appreciating them is another major gift. But perhaps the greatest gift of all has been loving myself with gentleness and kindness whether I can do it or not. And also being willing to receive help. Still weak on asking but opening to receiving. Also being able to love at least one person perhaps two much less conditionally ( almost unconditionally) is such a major shift.This is what these time call for. May we all know we are not alone. Ah, Thought of another gift. Not comparing myself to those who could do all of these things without blinking an eye. For me they have been very challenging. And I accept that about this one. No more trying to be someone I am not at least not all the time. More and more I can love myself with tenderness, less and less trying to bitch slap myself into submission to get some thing “required” done.