So I did not have fun for part of the day yesterday and was not very successful in making peace with the unfun energies. So in exploring it with my miracle buddy she cuts right to the chase. In her rather nonchalant way she announces, you have to face your fear of death. Gulp. I KNOW she is absolutely right. This is the last barrier to peace. For me moving through co-dependency/ specialness was a real show stopper but trust me my life has changed radically now that that energy is mostly behind me, huge sigh of relief.
So now I/ we must simply face our fear of death. Ok, easy peasy she assures me. Yea, just because humans have avoided it like the plague, no worries. So on my list today: drink iced coffee, clean up a bit, walk, yoga, face fear of death. She did mention that most of us will not face this one until a few moments before departure, instead letting it drag our lives down until that moment.
Here is what I truly see. Until I face this one, that mild sense of doom that sometimes erupts to a huge sense of doom will continue to plague me. So yea I see what she says is ABSOLUTELY true, until I move through this one, I will continue to live a life where some days are filled with quiet desperation and no days are lived in total freedom. I have the privilege of having a few personal friends who have moved beyond this gateway and the sense of peace and well being emanating off of them makes me eager to join the club. Their sense of calm and equanimity in these times is beyond inspiring. One got there through an actual death experience yet not that interested in that particular doorway. Wish me luck in doing it the way she assures me is possible, filled with grace and ease. And of course no way savannah can pull this off, mySelf has got this. Let the fun begin. And yea feel body relax seeing what the next step is.
