Since June 6m the day after the first eclipse my inner journey has been so powerful that i find I literally have no energy to speak of it. It feel like a tornado of energy swirling around me, loosening and stripping away the old and exposing, uncovering, unearthing the new. From one second to the next it was as though a bomb had gone off and all my attention was focused on letting go of any remnants of the victim/ rescuer/ perpetrator triangle and on just moving through the energies of revelation as they move.
There have been times where the pressure of primal energies moving through and transmuting felt so crushing I wondered if I could go on. There have been times when I was not sure I had the stamina to continue, nor a strong enough desire. Luckily those have been relatively fleeting. I have a strong sense of renewal and regeneration but that thread was fading. And may I welcome whatever arises within with open arms, never abandoning the one that has felt abandoned for eons. May I also be willing to let go of any remnants of the old drama queen that always had to have thing move with dramatic flourish!
I want to thank my energetic life savers. First and foremost Tiina for using her skill at Tarot to reveal to me what is transpiring, which almost completely matches my intuition and helped me muster up the inner fortitude to trudge on. Ellen for a wonderful and inspiring conversation of two like hearted souls. Karin for her courage and willingness to stay inwardly centered and seeing past the illusionary tricks being presented. Robert for sharing with me the intensity of his own experience and supporting me in not feeling so alone in the sometimes crushing and oppressive energies of transmutation. All the Wild Hearts for their continued support. And Theresa for sharing so many details of her own experience of ego death which then allows me to hold these energies in a more allowing way then perhaps I could have otherwise. It really helps to be able to see past the tunnel.
For anyone caught in the slight of hand magicians trick that asks us to keep our attention on fear and separation, I send you my love and encourage you to look past where energy of life/death is being directed and allow yourself to focus instead on your own eternal nature. Don’t let this obvious bid for fear/ separation to “win,” distract you from the Truth. So much gratitude for those that hold with me when my strength falters. Please know how full this heart is, overflowing with gratitude!
