Now. Getting so many birthday comments and messages. For years my birthday was proof positive I was loved. I made family give me presents until the slaves revolted. How incredible to wake up and feel loved whatever happens, to have it be an internal state. I finally was able to let go of needing so much external proof. Already had two birthday songs and hearing Joshua sing with that sexy African accent was the icing on the cake. Yet I noticed I was rushing through the messages, almost doing my old habit of counting how many good wishes I got. Before I tried to squelch the creatures seemingly insatiable need to be loved on birthday/ Christmas as that was what was how I was conditioned to receive love. Feel energy moving through the body as I see all these message of love. This time I am going to slow wayyyyyyy down, really savor each message and let the creature go wild. She can count if she wants to, why the hell not! OMG I just let my creature pick the images. I was so cruel to her about how much she needed to feel love on her birthday. Shoot will have to buy her a balloon if I can find one, she LOVES them. Wow, what a shift to stop trying to beat her up for being needy and just let her feel the way she feels sweet relief!!! And never realized me and Buddha share a birthday, how cool is that!!!!! I also want to say how deeply touched that many of my Facebook friends that I do not know personally are taking the time to send me messages. Can I just mention tears of joy are leaking from these eyes!?! The creature is just going wild with joy! She is eating this up, blessings to her. She has taken an awful beating for so long on the misguided spiritual path that chose to ignore her for so long in the name of some kind of spiritual awakening. Bah humbug!
