Today’s earth angel is Lexie. Yesterday I was in the gym’s sauna using my pendulum to decide if I was meant to (i.e read had to) face a situation that was invoking tremendous fear. I had every excuse in the book not to. Lexie asked me what i was doing and when I explained in detail what I was trying to decide, she said I think you should do it. She went on to say, I really think (maybe even know?) you should do it. My jaw dropped open and it felt as if a true angel had descend (which of course did occur) to bolster my courage and certainty that there was no legitimate escape from this rite of passage. I did indeed go to the group and with a lot of help from my friends including Ulf, Marianne, Amber, Phil, Lisa, Kim and Dj. I gathered up my quaking self and showed up in radical honesty. So many miracles unfolded in this process. I discovered I still feared powerful men as a remnant of my most difficult relationship and that had to go in order for me to attract the holy relationship I know I am destined for. I also uncovered a deep fear a Catholic God would smite me if I was not perfect, if I sinned. The experience released a tremendous amount of fear and energy. A deep bow to Daniel for playing his role perfectly. My heart is feeling so spacious and whole again. Man, this separation business is so painful! Such liberation to move out of projection/ judgment. Thank you Lexie for tipping the scales!!!!!!!
remembering the joy of being
