On holy relationship:
The last week and a half has been a miracle and finally exam for my year with the TTC. For an entire year I have been guided to exit the ego thought system and see my own innocence, our own innocence. Now at the end of the year a situation has arisen that gives me an opportunity to test my chops and put the petal to the metal. (sorry, these silly phrases make me laugh.) Someone close to me pointed out to me my errors, the ways I am wrong and threatened the relationship if I do not measure up. With resulting loss of peace, I reviewed my behavior, looking and finding error and settled back into the guilt that is the foundation of the ego. A sleepless night persuaded me to choose again, to reclaim my own innocence. I have had the incredible blessing of having two key relationships hold my innocence, my mother and my daughter. With my daughter it was a bumpy ride for a number of years as the lion and the bull duked it out, getting into lots of tangles yet, for me, we held each other in love and innocence at the deepest level. To have that relationship come to fruition with such pure Trust, honesty, intimacy, support, encouragement is the dream of all my lifetimes, eons spent getting to this point. It took a year of having it constantly reinforced to be able to hold and snap out of guilt overnight. The contrast between the way my TTC family and my daughter and a few others hold me is just too great to be willing to sink back into guilt. I see the friend as an absolute angel fulfilling an ancient soul agreement and I bow in gratitude for bringing me this opportunity to truly anchor the blessings of this last year. And angels danced.
