It is important to notice where our attention is, on what we want or what we don’t want. When we first start playing the awakening game, it may feel like all hell has broken lose, as I have said before. For that period it is merely hang on to your hat and survive it. Yet once the initial huge wave of clearing washes us on the shores of awareness, there begins to be enough internal space to become the creators of our own reality through taking dominion of our consciousness. We notice how self judgment, unkindness criticism do not feel good in our bodies. We make other choices. We align with our true values. We begin to experience mini miracles and become interested in bigger magic.
One of the trickiest parts of this awakening is not to believe the evidence of what your body tells you when it yells disaster, Our bodies show us what our minds believe, whether it is real or not. It is real if we say so. I want to share on example. Insomnia. I have experienced it off and on for 16 years. Initially it felt like it was such a burden and internally I moaned and groaned. I gradually learned not to look at the time, not to complain, not to keep telling myself I need to sleep or I would be so exhausted. I would lay peacefully when I could not sleep and focus on my soft sheets, feeling blessed with my comfortable bed. Then when I woke up I would never calculate how much sleep I had or say to myself, oh, now i will be tired all day. So two nights ago I fell asleep very late and did not sleep long. Last night as I was going to bed I realized I had never felt tired nor had I even remembered I had hardly slept. This morning I again awoke before dawn but again, don’t feel tired, no need for coffee. This is one small example of how it is our minds/ brain that decide what are physical experience will be. Our minds are malleable and we can choose to believe what we want.
Experiment for yourself, make it a game, see what miracles you are able to create. Now i am interested in playing the game on the other side, not getting rid of what I don’t want, rather creating what I do. Sometimes almost spooky how little things I picture then mysteriously show up after I had forgotten about my earlier picture. Try it, it is fun and, dare I say, joyful.
Yet know everyone is at a different stage. If it is your turn to play in hell, I ask you to release all blame or shame. It is no one’s fault, merely the game we are playing here on earth at this time. We each get our turn in the various stages. If you are feeling buried in suffering, remember to love the one inside that is suffering, not the condition or problem, the one who is caught in the web of challenge. For example, I do not love lack of sleep, I love the one who was worried previously when i could not sleep.
remembering the joy of being
