moving the energy in our bodies

Yesterday I had huge physical intensity in my body. Most of it was formless, meaning i had no clue why it was there nor did I try to analyze it. Later something triggered a huge response. An unhealed wound arose, something I have always said I am unwilling to take to my grave. The Mystery has decided now is the time to finally turn and face it. The energy that arose in my body felt literally intolerable, like my spine would snap in half or simply shatter. I kept breathing into it, feeling it, loving the part of me that felt it was unbearable. I went outside to be held by the breeze, by the birds and trees, calling on any and all guides and teachers to help me.
I had been in the middle of painting for the first time in some months when the trigger happened. The painting was already influenced by the energy I was feeling and was completed ion a state of deep physical pain and crushing tension. The name of the painting is “An energy I used to call anxiety.” My dear friend Maureen looked deeply into it and found a whole other interpretation that included dragons, ancestors, and a wellspring for healing transformation. Her words validated my deepest vision for myself, for these time, for the possibility of being restored fully to the joy of my own being. It called forth so much energy of support and I honor and thank her for helping carry me at a difficult moment. For those of you who are also feeling these energies in such a overwhelming way, may we all know this is a massive clearing, an emptying out that will carry us home to our own Mystery, to the beauty that is our true nature, to the wonder of living a life so rich with a tapestry of such vivd color and magic. May we embody the love that we are.
For those empaths and sensatives who are feeling the energy so deeply, I strongly recommend deep, slow breathing, being in nature, hot mineral baths with epson salts and lavender, spending as much time alone as possible in silence and, most importantly, learning to turn into the energy in the body, to hold with it tenderly, to just breath into it, to feel it. I know this is very challenging but anything not fully felt is stored in cellular memory. When it is fully felt, like we see babies do, it will not be stored and passes quickly. Unfortunately as a “civilized” society, we have been trained out of our natural abilities to move energy. Ways to move the energy can include chanting, dancing, shaking, yelling, sweating, crying. This has been one of the hardest yet most vital lessons of my life, learning to move the energy rather then resist or run from it. May we all be blessed by feeling safe in our own bodies.