mastery

I had such a demonstration of mastery this morning. Like many of us, I have had what seems like endless irritants and frustrations piling up. Sometimes I remain totally neutral and truly embrace what arises and sometimes I have a shit fit, especially when they pile up. To me it is a clear opportunity to demonstrate mastery, to remember Who I am, my divine nature rather then perceive myself as victimized by circumstances. This usually works great until the mysterious “too many” pile up. So lately here are a few of the challenges, heat in the higher hundreds, three challenges sequentially with my car, both my daughter and I losing our wallets with exceptionally high amounts of money in them, my repaired deck getting messed up after being completed, further house repairs discovered and so on. I also have something coming up that will be very physically demanding and had been looming over me, sometimes having me slide into fear. So I had barely woken up this morning when I get a call from my mechanic who said he had no time to look at my car for the latest problem as he was super busy. I asked if it was safe to drive and he said no. Then he reversed himself and said to come right in. I rush over and he says I am incredibly lucky as he just finished the car he had on the lift. I also need a taillight and he says I am incredibly lucky as he has one of those very obscure bulbs. He fixes the light even though another part is damaged. He hoist the car up and somehow jury rigs the problem so all is well. I ask him how much it cost and he does not answer me, he looks away almost shaking. I wait and he still doesn’t answer. I start praying, affirming myself as a Master, knowing all is well. I ask again and again he does not answer. He finally says he will charge me nothing. It seemed as though he himself was surprised by what he said, as though he struggled to come up with that answer. The last time I was there he told me he charges $89 just to look at a car. That time he charged me $20 for a part. I ask if I can hug him then beat it out of there, literally crying. Why? I was so touched buy his generosity yet also moved by my sense I am getting into the swing of really seeing myself as a master, knowing this is not bullshit but a real power that bends reality. Oh yea, the bonus? He has my wallet from when I was there last. It had $98 in it. Yea, I am a believer.