courage, transformation, trust, perception

Given the intensity of these times, I have been pondering how to best get through these energies with courage and trust intact. My latest energetic fallout had me reeling and cringing, crying for mama. It made it clear to me that I had to form a different relationship to those moments where the evolutionary impulse is so strong it is pushing up the dredges of unconsciousness and limitation with fierce fire.  I absolutely know I am not alone in feeling the intensity. Despite being aware that the energetics are designed to reveal and transform obstacles, I would still freak out when an energy I formerly would have called anxiety arose. It as thought my life time of constant, debilitating anxiety that only cleared as my general state a few years ago, with a probable history of many more lifetimes of a similar nervous energy compiling the charge, would rear up with a primal fear of being swept back into the same energetic frequency. The fear feels very primal. How to be with that without going nuts?

This is the question I have been living with. I love how quickly my questions are being answered lately. I was introduced to the work of Bentinho Massaro who answered my question with this video:

https://www.youtube.com/user/BentinhoMassaro

He did not say anything I had not heard but he said the right thing at the right time. Overall his work does not fully resonate for me as I experience it as more of a review but it does speak to many people. I believe we each have out own frequency and timing so I like to present anyone I feel may meet someone’s needs. My one concern is that many law of attraction teachings can induce a sense of blame or guilt if one does not get the desired results. I will address that another time. He has clearly many other teachings yet I have not yet heard him clearly address innocence which is a major theme for me this year. Still, it gave me a new perspective, exactly what I was looking for. I had already realized this is where I needed to go but this video gave me the energetic backing to do it, which is REALLY change my perspective/perception of these wild energies. Intellectually I have known and understood they are clearing limitations by forcing them to the surface, ready or not, revealing any perceived sense of limit and giving us the opportunity to shift our beliefs, make another choice. Over time I have come to neutrality over so many things and the resulting freedom is indeed breathtaking. But not so with the frequency of an over-amped nervous system. This is where I have still been crying uncle. So it is clear to me that I have an opportunity to frame it differently. I was already doing this intellectually and know it is often a process until it drops into being/heart. My hope is by creating a powerful frame in place BEFORE the energies hit me, I may be able to withstand the turbulence with less inner fear. It is an experiment to call it “epic” in Bentinho’s word. It is an epic chance to dissolve this energy from my nervous system, to greet it by calling it excitement rather then fear, which, as I said before, both have the same exact chemical composition. I am again reminded of the movie “Gravity.” The heroine was exposed to so many terrifying situations after an accident in outer space but the last part of her journey was perhaps the most turbulent as she literally almost burned up on reentry to Earth. I figure our inner transformation to remembering our own unlimited nature is like that, as we approach ground zero the turbulence can become more extreme although it is held by a greater sense of certainty and knowing and is surrounded by such peace and trust.

I had the good fortune to attend an amazingly powerful Way of Mastery study group last night. The energy of excitement about the new year was powerful. It helped me hold in seeing this intensity with enthusiasm rather then fear. In the past I would have made up a story that I was the only one finding it challenging while everyone else was sailing through. This time I did not let others’ passion for the possibilities and openings lead to self judgment or blame or an idea that they were going through these times without any difficulties, making me the lone ranger of experiencing challenge. Instead I allowed myself to be swept up ion their exuberance. I allowed it to penetrate me with the absolute knowing we are living in historic times filled with such stunning opportunities and possibilities, never before available here on Earth. So my experiment is to say whatever arises is the evolutionary impulse having its way with me, knowing the best and quickest way to restore me to the full Remembrance of Who I am. A little turbulence, what the hell, a small price to pay to be restored to our own magnificence. Wanna join the experiment?