inadequacy and waves

Deep feelings of inadequacy arising as i face termites, wood rot, septic care and a lot of deferred maintenance along with my leaking washing machine and major Blue Shield issue. Having trouble keeping calm and balanced, immediately going outside in the sun to calm down, take deep breaths, love myself through these turbulent waves.

7 Replies to “inadequacy and waves”

  1. I hear you Savannah… Word for word all your posts… Its a match with my thoughts exactly! We are the 0.05% doing the heavy work… Blessings, we are with you!!!
    Trisha Downunder xx

    • Thank you darling, needed to hear that. Was just at my Temple group where at least a few seem to be sailing along with giggles, peace, support, love, ease. So easy to slip into, why me? did I do something wrong energy. I catch it quickly, often before it takes hold and give thanks for TWYH where I feel such familiarity and belonging but damn, enough with the intensity and hits to the nervous system. Ovreall doing well yet requires tremendous focus not to give in to the numerous irritants, disappointments, challenges. Yes, miracles and magic too but the other is sooooooooooooo oooooooooooooold. Sad to hear you are struggling to yet I must admit glad to hear I am not alone in the sporadically stuck places. Definitely not in joy often, yet.

  2. I’m with Tish. 🙂
    Amazing how so much stuff comes down this time of year…..Hang in there! And keep an eye out for Santa Claus! I’ve heard he doesn’t necessarily need snow and chimneys……..
    XO

  3. Thanks B.J., sounds good, could use a boost but I truly thank God that I have healed 99-100% of my Christmas/ present charge so the fact that it looks like a pretty slim Christmas does not have me feeling sad or believing I am not loved. I am thrillingly neutral about it but must say not excited either, feels rather unreal. Hope you have a great Christmas. I did enjoy personifying Jeshua at Temple this evening, that was powerful and got me in the mood along with all of the Temple sisters singing silent night so harmoniously. Hope whatever challenges you are facing flow with ease into grace. Love hugs to both of you..

  4. Thanks B.J., sounds good, could use a boost but I truly thank God that I have healed 99-100% of my Christmas/ present charge so the fact that it looks like a pretty slim Christmas does not have me feeling sad or believing I am not loved. I am thrillingly neutral about it but must say not excited either, feels rather unreal. Hope you have a great Christmas. I did enjoy personifying Jeshua at Temple this evening, that was powerful and got me in the mood along with all of the Temple sisters singing silent night so harmoniously. Hope whatever challenges you are facing flow with ease into grace. I do have the sense some of us may be in the final rinse cycle, hope that is not wishful thinking. Love hugs to both of you..

  5. I am with you too. Not feeling joy, not feeling depressed either. Just empty. But this to shall pass.
    Love and blessings <3
    Malene

    • Yes, after all this challenge this non state is not exactly the gift I was looking for yet I celebrate each day that I am not in fear or anxiety. I do remember to be grateful. It is wonderful to hear from all of you and know this is just what is up on planet earth. I do know it yet can move into doubt so the confirmation helps. Also little movement on the abundance front but yes that too shall pass. Seeing others in the joy or abundance frequency already, I must focus not to be envious. I prefer to be inspired. I do see much movement in many areas and realize I have met two of my most important life goals so that IS something I can celebrate. Love to you too Malene

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