releasing self doubt and comparison

On this powerful day I want to publicly declare I am releasing self doubt and the 3C’s: comparison, criticism and control. I have doubted myself about my decision to commit 100% to my mission and passion and not look for a job, I have questioned my need for space and silence rather then accepting such wonderful invitations this season. I have questioned my decisions to take little trips with my daughter or eat out when it gives us such joy yet depletes my savings when money has not yet entered a flow. I question whether I am missing the joy boat because I am not doing something I should me doing (OK that use to be a big one now is itty bitty, yea). I feel the pain of the self doubt in my body and am so grateful how quickly answers show up to counter my doubts. I had just asked myself if I was crazy to take my little trips when I bumped into a friend who told me how much she admired me for that. I was questioning my decision to honor myself and my need to slow down by only sending prayers and lighting a candle when a friend of mine’s partner was dying rather than going in person when I bumped into two people who were providing the support she had requested. My guides told me to can it on questioning whether I need to get a job yet still I doubt. I also compare myself to people who do not have such sensitive nervous system, who are not knocked out by solar flares, wishing I could function as they do. I question whether this blog and web site really serve a purpose then I feel so supported when someone else admits to me how they are riding the waves of energy. I compare myself to people who are joyful and see myself, although rarely now, as falling short. I immediately move into self compassion and love and realize this too is so human yet I still do it and it hurts. I am so ready to let this all go and yet know I cannot force it to go. I must allow the Mystery to have its way with me, letting it all unfold with grace and Divine timing. I will do another ritual if it feels good to let it all go but it that does not fit, I will let go of the need for a ritual, no more Spiritual Type A, that has so got to go. No more being a slave to motherhood or spirituality but that is another subject. The photo is by my daughter and shows us how to allow the light to help us bloom without effort. Sending love and release energy, my loves.